Ground Hog Day

Okay so i ain't up-dated in awhile... it's called sheer laziness and the fact that when it come down to actually writing something i can never be bothered... OK that's the same thing as laziness, but who cares. Nearly everyday i feel like i have to climb over a hurdle, the same hurdle i climbed the day before. Its as though when i go to sleep someone picks me up by the feet, twirls me around like a shot-put and flings me back to were i was. And where is that... well.. it's the same dull blackness, that i now face everyday. I don't mean this to sound sinister... just .. well .. i dunno. I suppose I'm losing enthusiasm, for work, for uni for life ... i just want to stay in my comfort zone and not move... and yes i know that's boring, but there's nothing to inspire me, nothing to make me think 'wow'. And everyday is the same, like 'ground-hog' day. Even reading the new Harry Potter was just another day... sigh...

I think part of its got to do with the fact that nothing simulates my mind any more, i may even be losing brain cells just by not using them, as my neuro lecturer use to say, "Use them or lose them." So, my new dilemma is to think of something which will inspire me and make me act so that i can prevent any further brain cells from dying and crossing into the abyss. Any ideas would be great!

That Chocolate High

I feel stuffed and utterly fat after scoffing 400g of Cadbury Fruit & Nut within the past hour, but also happily satisfied and content with my brain buzzing! I keep telling myself that I'll get up and do some form of exercise to burn it all off... but I'm still on that chocolate high.

Two months and a bit now till i start med school and all the headachy stuff like loans and accommodation applications forms are all kinda sorted, although i did have problems getting a student account with Halifax. I've never been in debt with banks or overdrawn... i like my statements to be printed in black ink, and yet i get refused a student account due to credit rating... HELLO, i want a current account not a silly credit card, besides I am a student... what do they expect lol!

I'm getting to that state where work is becoming frighteningly comfortable. I suppose I'm getting into a routine and ... well, accepting work as apart of life, just as iv accepted the two grey hairs i found on my head the other day. But the fact that i found another one today, probably shows i haven't truly comes to terms with it, since the stress and horror of finding the first few probably caused the latest culprit.

A Necessary Evil

WORK: I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. .

... But it’s paying for med school fees! Although I constantly dream about walking into the job centre and applying for another job, thinking that my honors degree and previous qualifications will get me out of this hell hole. But I only have to stick it out for another 3 months and i suppose the pay could be worst, so...

... my two days off come to an end! Back to the bitching and work politics! Only good thing is that now I'm allowed to drive the big mini bus owned by the company, which two days ago i crashed into a fence whilst reversing! It kinda broke, but no scratches on the bus so no one needs to know my little secret!

Campus Allocations

For the past few days I've eagerly been waiting for my campus allocation letter from my med school. As the med school is split between two campuses, it randomly allocates us one 'base' campus, although technically we're part of both. Well I'm getting impatient, i wanna know already! Other people have already received their letters, but I'm gonna have to wait a tad bit longer...ahh why didn't i just ring yesterday... uhh, probably cause i was too lazy to do so....

Once I've discovered which campus I've been allocated i can begin to sort out the accommodation, how exciting huh! Well it'd mean I'm that one step closer to moving out of this house! Strange thing is, although it was antagonizingly annoying living with mum & dad, I've kinda become comfortable here and i seriously think I'd miss them, well i suppose I'd be back for Xmas and other holidays.